Life

I realize I haven't updated this in a little while. Okay, a long while. Like a few months while. But whatever, life happens and shit happens.

I don't have anything to blog about right now, so I'm just gonna update on my life right now.

I'm in a band. Well, I've been in a band for about four months now, and we have five members. I play keyboards and backing vocals, Tina lead vocals and rhythm guitars, Pat plays lead guitar, Justin is our drummer and Jimmy also sings lead vocals. He's learning guitar and bought himself a new acoustic-electric and is saving up for a Flying V. We're doing mainly covers right now, but we're working on creating an original song.

I would consider myself an atheist now. I know I don't believe in God or any deity, I don't believe in Heaven or Hell, I don't believe in reincarnation or karma or whatever you want to call it. I used to be pretty religious, but I don't necessarily look back on the times I was the most religious quite fondly. (From when I was 12 to 14. Let's just say they weren't my best years.) I don't necessarily hate religion, I just don't agree with it. I don't hate people who are religious, I have friends who are devoutly religious. I just don't share their beliefs. And I'm not ashamed of it.

I plan on picking up a few more instruments beside piano. I want to learn to play violin, but in a folksy/fiddle style instead of classical violin. This would probably help if my band ever wanted to cover "Ocean Avenue" by Yellowcard. But I've wanted to learn violin since I was a kid, and it is one of my favorite instruments. I also want to learn guitar, because I also love the guitar.

There's some other things I want to say, but I really don't. Either because I don't feel comfortable telling them to everyone on the Internet, or I'm just too tired and it would be pretty long to explain. And I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind right now because I can't find Moulin Rouge and it was the next romance film I could find.

It's probably both.

All I'm gonna say that life is like a person - they can be nice and sweet, they can be angry and vengeful, or they can be worrisome and depressing. My life recently has been a roller coaster, filled with ups and downs, and more recently more downs than ups. I've been lazy, apathetic, unmotivated and my grades are in the toilet right now. All that matters to me right now are my friends and family and the music. Everything else, I couldn't give a shit about.

All I know is that I'm willing to throw everything away for what I want. And what I want more than anything is not to lose what I have, even though I know one day I will, and to be fantastic as both a pianist and as part of a band.

And that Rock Band 2 with DLC is the best video game for the Xbox 360. And that I really want both Rock Band and an Xbox 360.