Neverland

No, this post isn't a review of J. M. Barrie's Peter Pan. It's moreover talking about life and childhood dreams and facing that you have to grow up.

Yesterday, I spent a whole day with my friend. We walked around our development, played music on her guitar, went to Wawa, talked about everything, hung out on the playground, went for a walk at 10:00, watched various videos and had fun. The only thing we didn't do is swim and eat ice cream. If we had, that day would have been the second greatest day of the summer so far. (The first was everything mentioned above, only with swimming, ice cream, piano, pizza, and with two of my best friends. That was two weeks ago.) I wanted the day (two weeks ago) to last forever.

I told my friend last night about how that day was possibly the best cure for end-of-the-year stress, and that I never wanted it to end. She agreed.

After thinking about last night and the night a few weeks ago, I realized that like Peter Pan, I never want to grow up. Being fifteen, and it being summer, I have just about all the freedom in the world. Of course, I have parents, and have to obey law enforcement and gravity, but I can do whatever I want. I can do whatever I set my mind to. If I work hard enough, I can be in Women's Ensemble and Concert Choir if I work on my pitch and volume. I can perform at the Guild if I practice at least daily on piano.

I digress.

Right now, life is great. I have little responsibilities, I can sleep in until noon, I don't have a job, and honestly, I don't have a care in the world. I have nothing to worry about. And because it's summer, I don't have to care. I just have to do a few household chores and practice piano.

When I was a kid, my idea of a perfect childhood fantasy world was a mix between Alice's Wonderland, Peter Pan's Neverland and Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory. And I wanted all of it. I still do, but reality is now slapping me in the face because I have braces. If I didn't have braces, I would still be imagining a candy-infused Wonderland where I never had to grow up.

What I've been saying the whole time is because life is great right now, I never want to grow up. I can fly away to Neverland and never have to grow up.